Don't Call it a Comeback

I have returned to the blog. I don't know if people will still want to read it, but I have missed it. I'm really surprised that I didn't blog more during my pregnancy. This blog is about motherhood- from my perspective. Hopefully it makes people laugh and I hope women who have been through it relate and women who haven't gain some idea about what it's like.
I have twins- a boy and a girl. They're 12 weeks old and the product of IVF. I was soooo excited to meet these babies, but I did not enjoy being pregnant at all. I feel really ungrateful saying so, but it was not an easy process. Early in the pregnancy, I had to take the intramuscular Progesterone shots for 8 weeks, and they made me exhausted and weepy and left lumps on my butt. Then, around 12 weeks, I had some complications and was on bed rest to see if I would miscarry.
When I hit my second trimester, I had 4-6 solid weeks of feeling great- like my old self, but slightly bigger. Then the size caught up with me and the rest was ridiculous.
I have always thought of myself as a woman's woman. I place a high value on girl friends and think it's important for women to support each other professionally and personally. I don't like when women say, "I don't get along that well with other women".
Having said that, when I first started having such a hard time with the pregnancy, I got a little pissed at the sisterhood. Before I got pregnant no one told me that it would suck so badly. As a matter of fact, I heard quite a few women say, "ooohhh! I looooovvvved being pregnant!". No one talked about how hard it is to actually be pregnant until I was pregnant- and it is f-ing HARD! Even then, when women asked how the pregnancy was going, and I replied, "I hate it and can't wait to have the babies", they would look to make sure no one was listening before responding quietly with comments like, "I didn't like being pregnant either. I felt claustrophobic/terrified/in constant pain/like a host to a parasite." Women do this. We are uncomfortable with certain subjects that make us seem like we give a shit about ourselves and our own feelings.
I know that there are women out there who have mild to no symptoms during pregnancy, and to these women carrying a child must seem like a beautiful dream. Maybe I just ran into those women before getting pregnant, but I think women are not OK with saying, even though the joy you feel when you're with your children is worth the trouble, it's hard to be pregnant.
There were issues that I never dreamed would come up. Frankly, the whole experience made me (not for the first time) question the sanity of that Duggar woman. She was pregnant and gave birth 19 times!!! I bet she can't walk from here to there without peeing her pants, and it makes me wonder how many hemorrhoid surgeries she's had. I had headaches that would not respond to Tylenol or the first two migraine prescriptions I was given. I fell asleep at work, driving to work, driving home, eating and watching TV. During my first trimester, all I did was eat, sleep and work. I suppose that was to make up for the fact that at the end of my second and all through my third trimester, I didn't sleep at all. I couldn't sleep for more than an hour at a time. It hurt to stand, sit, or lay down. I was puffy and my feet were really fat. I did not glow. I just wanted to feel like my old self. Foolishly, I thought that I could go back to being my old self once the babies were here.